Thinking about my life again
wondering how long ill be playing
This game of chess how long I be able to last
For it seems I’m just an outcast
don’t know where I’m headed
But these tears I’m shedding
wont just dissipate
and go away
They become scars that create
another way to remember the pain
Why am I alive why do I look the way I do
Why cant I ever feel true
how can I escape my own image
I feel like a victim from my enemies pillaging
Why do I feel so grim
to get out alive chances slim
Can anyone relate to my mind
or am I destined to be benign
Having no purpose or reason to the madness
Cause my souls full of such sadness
Can I break from this I feel a sickness
That comes from the deepest sickest
Disease from the devil himself
How does god plan to help
Id really like to know his plan for my life
But he seems to just be quiet tonight
I hope to find his love some how
But I guess it’ll have start with a bow
An act of humiliation
Instead of retaliation
Of going back to the sin
Please god speak my name again
Cause its hard to find the location of your voice
With all this destructive noise filling my ears
With sounds that just fuel my fears
And make me hide away
I guess I should have never strayed
Loscros